Part of the chain of events that gave rise to the course. By the way, let it remind you of your own experiences and inspire your own book/course or something similar.

October 28, 1993 – as a fifth-grade student, I had a traffic accident, flying headfirst through a windshield while my bicycle flew more than 40 meters. I was in a comatose state for almost an hour. It was my first close encounter with death.

May 14, 1994 – at the same place, a classmate from my desk was killed. A drunk driver hit her. At that time funerals were still held with open coffins, so I remember her face. Along with my own accident, that day deeply fueled many questions and the search for answers that continues to this day.

Autumn 1995 – a girl from the opposite school shift, adorable, but it was enough for me just to see her from time to time, dies at a railway crossing. About a month later she appeared in my dream, waving and smiling. I felt a mild fear, because it was the first such dream I had, but also a sense of peace. That was when I realized that nothing truly ends with death. She simply said goodbye until a next meeting.

From 1997 onward – I increasingly found myself in sensitive conversations in which people confided their painful experiences to me. At that time I didn’t have the capacity to be of great help, but I could listen and deeply feel the weight they were carrying - even understand it. It was as if the earlier started search had tuned me to feel and understand what was happening inside people. That was when I realized for the first time that outward appearance is just a mask and only a tiny part of what a person truly is - like the tip of an iceberg, with a vast mass beneath the surface.

1997–1998 – first reading of the Bible. Of course I didn’t experience it as deeply then as I do today, but it helped the search for answers.

December 2000 – hepatitis B was detected when I donated blood for school. The pediatrician told me it was incurable. That night grief appeared for the first time, that I had been cocooned away from everything I felt life truly was. From then on, my approach to life changed: I continued to search for answers, but I also tried harder to live what life was offering me.

April 2001 – neither the doctors nor I understood it at the time, but after many tests it was confirmed that hepatitis B was gone. It was a confirmation that I was on the right path.

January 13, 2004 – an experience of deep understanding and connection with a person who helped me overcome my fear of the dentist. I realized then that we can feel another person’s entire being even before we consciously understand them.

April 2007 – a journey to Syria - I met people who were ready to sincerely help, even though they were of different religion and culture. Sadly, after the war I lost all contact with them. Once again I was forced to rely on the invisible connection of souls. I also returned home by hitchhiking and on foot, forced to fully surrender to the will of life, since I had little control over the circumstances of my return.

December 2009 – meeting a girl from a town in Serbia. Out of caution not to be intrusive, I forgot to ask her name. Knowing where she studied, the search lasted four years. When I finally discovered who she was, before I could see her again, she tragically died on her birthday. That experience left a deep mark and further fueled the search for meaning.

May 2013 – seven days on Mount Athos (Hilandar). I consider this the beginning of my more significant spiritual awakening, because the Holy Mountain is literally another planet.

September 2013 – at the end of a youth exchange in Ohrid, a girl from Albania told me during our farewell that she had expected harsh words and that I would be full of hatred like many others. She asked me not to change and added that she hopes one day hatred between nations would disappear. The way she said it, and the feeling of that hug, sparked a quiet prayer that evil among people would be uprooted. It was also a push for me to do what I could to contribute to that.

November 2013 – at a youth exchange I organized with organizations from eight other countries, I experienced an exceptionally close bond with several people from Turkey, despite religious and cultural differences. Another confirmation of how much official teachings and political structures keep us apart.

April 2014 – pilgrimage through Israel. For the first time I felt, and even heard, the walk of the departed. I would have thought I was imagining it if I hadn’t heard the same from others who were there. I experienced from within the history of that entire land, which still lives despite so much struggle and hatred. I also felt connected to ordinary people, Jews and Muslims, who again confirmed how absurd the hatred spread by official institutions and power structures is. Finally, I witnessed the descent of the Holy Fire on Holy Saturday. Another proof of the power of the eternal Source from which our current way of life forcibly separates us.

July 2015 – I experienced an attack by a demonic force and again the feeling that this life was ending. Failed attempts to break free led to a prayer of farewell to the world and surrender to God. That total surrender caused the demon to retreat, so I remained alive. It was proof of the power that is with us when we fully surrender to God, the Source of life.

April 2017 – for the first time I literally saw the light of another person’s soul, and experienced the indescribable power of unconditional connection and love. The power of agape. It was the final turning point in my relationship with love. It also made me commit my life to awakening the light in others - for them, for myself, but also for making this world better place, which would be a wind at the back of that one person, and with her, the people close to me, to help them cope with the seemingly dominant darkness of today. An entire section of the course is dedicated to the details of Agape.

April 2017 – I had an extremely vivid dream of forced mobilization. After that dream, given the strong narratives of political structures pushing hatred and tension, I decided to write first the book and then a course, so that something would remain if the dream came true: a record of all the experiences so far, a collection of answers gathered during a 25-year search, and a message to kindred souls.

January 2022 – the loss of a close person due to the wrong medication, during a time of great confusion. A new, harsh reminder to be more present and active - to better read the messages of life and notice in time where I might be able to offer support.

In recent years, the ability to sense the invisible yet deeply present has guided me to seek sustainable ways to help the most vulnerable. The project presented on this website is the first in a series.

All of this is only part of a life path that continues to call for awareness and action…